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Silence screams in my mind,

I feel overwhelmed all the time,

nothing fits into place,

darkness threatens to replace me.

Panic settles on my chest,

I feel afraid and get no rest,

I always try to do my best,

it never seems to work out that way.

I smile one moment the next I cry,

sometimes I feel the urge to die,

like a puzzle with a missing piece,

I never fit properly together.

People around me must surely see,

the confusion going on inside of me,

I fear their stares and their rejection,

This is my personal prison.

I suppress these feelings they scare me so,

I feel like no one else I know,

I want to feel like everyone,

please take all of this pain away.

Take the sadness, confusion and the melancholy,

give me back the joy, pride and sanity,

help me to laugh and feel free,

to be the person locked inside of me.

The one who’s voice is never heard,

trapped in a cage like a little bird,

let it out and set me free,

lift this darkness off of me.

By: Beverly Beekmans

This was written probably in 2001 or 2002 for my now ex husband. It was my way of trying to help him understand me better, to try and express to him what suffering with depression feels like.